This morning I was preparing for my bible study and read these words by Beth Moore.
"Never forget how much He loves you and how zealously He pursues your company."
I was brought to tears. For those of you who know my reputation...yes, tears.
The fact that God loves me is usually just that. A dry fact floating around with all of the other facts in my brain. 3 x 7 = 21. AU is Gold. A verb is an action word. God loves me. 1682 - Peter the Great is Tzar of Russia...But this morning it came ALIVE for me! I realized that God gave me my husband Dave to poignantly illustrate this astounding truth for me every day.
I have a really hard time believing anyone would/could love me more than tolerantly. I know my faults. I know my history. Yet the Holy Spirit confirms and validates the words of Beth Moore. My spirit screams out, "Yes! It's true. She's right!! She is, after all, echoing the Word of God."
Some would say my husband is demanding. He isn't. He is jealous though. Extremely jealous. There is no doubt that he loves me and considers me his most precious treasure, his best friend, and closest confidant. He is loyal to the endth degree.
In my selfishness and my stubbornness, I get irritated with his desire to be with me ALL THE TIME!
But when I see my husband's love for me as a picture or shadow of Christ's love for me, I am utterly humbled.
I know that loving me is sometimes like curling up with a porcupine, and I am ashamed of my unloveliness. What a sweet gift God gave me this morning! What a valuable treasure God has given me in my husband. What an absolutely scandalous love He has for me!! He zealously pursues my company...Wow.
3 comments:
I on the other hand and TOTALLY loveable! The only thing thats prickly on me is my bald head (but only when you rub it the wrong way).
Kidding - obviously. Good post it reminds me of my favorite Max Lucado quote, "Jesus loves you just the way you are - but he refuses to leave you that way."
OK, I didn't make the above comment labeled at Jeep-ful.
Kari, to answer your question, I went into the last couple of weeks with a mind prepared to honor God, not one prepared to perform well. I struggle wityh this as a worship leader and teacher as well. My prayer remains that if my mistake better honors God than my "good execution", than help me to humbly praise God in that, and if I can honor God and keep from distracting without making a mistake, help me to humbly praise God in that as well. I often pray for forgiveness in the middle of a set.
Are you posting that I know not where?
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